When everything you thought wasn't real.

Its been a while since I last write. well its either I'm super happy with a fake prince charming or being miserable in the world I created.


There is this guy who I thought was perfect. Who I thought will stand on my side every time. Who I thought will never leave me no matter what destiny brings. And sad to say it was all in my mind. He left me with my shattered hopes, broken vows and unfinished story. I never thought a love story like that will only last for short time.

Fvck! Here it goes again the the memory I tried to hide. Memories that keeps on coming back every time I see his newly uploaded pictures on Facebook. How I wish I was the one in the photo with him.

When every heartache comes a great long time moving on. Its like having your diet, you need  discipline to finish it. Thanks for the short time memories hope I'll forget it soon.

We all have our unfinished stories. All of us experienced to be left in the middle of nowhere and all of us has the ability to bounce back and fix our self and pretend nothing happened.

Lets all enjoy this moment of being alone and lets all prove to those who hurt us that we can make it.

"BE PROUD THAT YOU'RE BROKENHEARTED"

February: Single awareness month

Why is it so much of a big deal February is. Is is because of Valentines? Or is it because many are now single and Valentines is much approaching or is it "I'm  single right now and alone this Feb"

For most of the people out thee who are single and still looking for the love of their life, their better half and everything. Valentine is just an excuse to not perform well in job and school Its is a holiday created by the couples to look forward in this February. And for me, this is just a regular day that was used to earn money for those business minded person. *BITTER

The truth is I never had someone to celebrate Valentines I'm usually with my friends  hangout somewhere watch at least not a romantic movie. I've been bitter in the situation of falling in love and not even last until the Valentines. Its sucks when everything in your eyes are lovers, friends that love each other, or even fighting lovers! Its sucks when all you ever wanted is to at least have one of those.


Tama na ang english emo. Isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit ayoko ng February ay dahil badtrip ako sa mga lovers na PDA! Puro yakap, halik, holding hands at kung ano-ano pang kalandian. Ayoko ng Valentines kasi its make think na bakit ako walang "jowa" samantalang lahat na ata ng kakilala ko meron na.

Sabagay hindi ko naman dapat patunayan na masaya ako. Its up to them how to react when they see me.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY LOVERS!

How to Let Go.

I thought it was just a dream. That everything that is happening is just a product of my imagination, but i guess, i was wrong again.

how would you say goodbye to the people you thought would last with you. how come we never see the future for us to prepare ourselves on  what might happen. How come all of a sudden i lost my dad in the very young age.

I've the prodigal son. I'm not his favorite  and i know that. He's a certified "consintidor" and i know he is always there for me. I regret. I was disappointed. How come he never see me walk on that stage and get my diploma how he at least never witness how will basha (his grand daughter) turn 18 or at least . 

I never had the just to say sorry. I know its too late but i want him to know that I'm so sorry for all the heartache, headache and other ache i gave to him. I'm sorry if i was not the son you expected and I'm sorry if I always disappoint you. Sorry if I don't have the guts to tell you how much thankful I'am that you are my father, my guardian and my mentor for almost 20 years of my existence. Sorry if i can't say I love you most of the time, because i know in your heart you know how much i love you. 

How come letting you go was so hard for us. How you not even said a single word just to say goodbye. How come i never had a time to say all the things I wanted to tell you. Now tell me how can I let go of things I thought will last a lifetime. 

Mahirap pala magpaalam sa isang tao napamahal na sa'yo ng sobra. To let go of things you thought would last a life time (or at least a long period of time.) Goodbye papa, I know I've never been what you expect. Sorry for becoming an answered prayer that turn to be one of your biggest disappointment. :'(