It’s been quite a while since I last saw him. It was like I never know him before; I was star struck when I saw him again. And just like what happen before his magical smile make my knees weak and when he stare at me he make me start to catch my breath. He’s just like the boy I wish I could have. The boy-next-door every single girls wish to be their boyfriend. He is the best thing that never been mine.
I always dream of him; his soft lips kissing my chicks, his tender hands caressing my back and his soft voice whispering my name over and over again. The same story always happen; the guy you always wanted never like you and the man you always reject was the one who pick you up. Same story, same plot, same climax, sometimes the character change but the whole concept is still there. What if I have the guts to change everything? Just like in the movie where there is this cool guy that can change our destiny or a guy who has a magical remote that can rewind or fast forward a specific part of his life. I want to change everything; from the snob start, awkward conversation, weird stuffs and all. I want to change all. I want to start in zero again. Back in square one.
What if I’m smarter than you? Would you ask help from me just to get your assignment done? What if I’m a cheerleader would you ask me a date because I’m hot? What if I was the queen of the night in our prom would you ask me to dance? All are questions, never been answered and never will be answered. These things will never happen and I guess it will never be. All of my dreams are shattered all over and I don’t know where I will start picking them up.
Now I just become a writer. An ordinary writer and you know what’s the best part of my job? It’s that I can change everything. The same plot and the sad endings. I can change them all in every single things I want. I can make the guy I love fall in love with me and just enough time before the guy who love me pick me up so that I can have my best ending. I maybe not the smartest one to help you out with your assignment. I maybe not the bombshell cheerleader you always dream to have a perfect date, or I may not be the queen of the night in our prom to have the opportunity to dance with you. In my story all of these will happen, all of these dreams will come true.
I may not be the man who has the ability to adjust everything to have a great destiny or that guy who has a magical remote to control my life but I’m a writer I can do much better than that. I can right everything I want, give my miserable story a happy ending, add another color to my life and etc. That’s the benefits of a writer I can control my happy ending, decide on what is the best and in case that I choose the wrong guy or make a wrong decision? I still have so many pages in my life to write a new chapter and I know in the end it will be a happy ending. I admit I’m not powerful, but I’m strong enough to overcome my fears, to face my mistake and make my life a better one. That’s a writer, if you can’t handle me, just don’t touch me because I’m stronger than what you think.
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