Happy Birthday and happy new year

December 31 1991 the last day for all but a start of life for me. Yes I was born at the last day of 1991. As fireworks are exploding in the air they're celebrating. BUHAY NA ANG DYOSA!


Lumaki naman akong tama, mejo nabaliko lang. :) But still I'am happy kung sino ako ngayon. Been the happy sobrang saya halos nakalimutan ko ng tanggalin ang mga ngiti sa aking mga labi! oo tama ngiti sa aking mga labi!

Nagsimula ang lahat noong Elementary days. Lagi  akong pumapasok. I always go to school on time.(PROUD TO SAY NEVER BEEN LATE).
And then I met them. Sila Jannica, Erika at Jamill. Andun ang kilig. Haha hindi pala ako kinikilig nung bata ako. LANDI pala ang tawag dun. They we're the witness of my childhood life :) the sweetest memory a person can have. And yes up to now na malaki na ako (5"6 malaki na yun!) they never forget me and so thought I So to all my ELEMENTARY FRIENDS!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!


Matapos dumaldal sa Elementary malamang Grumaduate ako. YES!! Graduate po ako ng elem. Hindi lang halata. Then the High school life begin. Ang dami kong memories nung H.S halos lahat ata memories eh. Lahat ng FIRST andito sa high school ko that's why High School is my molder. And dami nil anjan ang PORWAN, na naging sandalan at kakopyahan ko para lang makaGRADUATE ng high school oo naman na ngopya din ako ng Assignment, Quiz, Periodical Test, kahit ata diagnostic test eh nangopya na din ako. Madmi akong ka-close nung H.S ayaw ko magbangit baka may mag selos. Thank you sa High School FRIENDS ko, kung hindi dahil sa inyo I'll never be JHON MARK U. RAMOS :)

PORWAN FAMILY

As I graduated from high school I went to college. Hindi ko man nakuha nag gusto kong kurso at least my consolation prize ako. I gained sommany FRIENDS na mas marami pa ata sa inaakala ko. BOANATCSZ who's always been mapagtiis sa aking pag ka maldita at walang sawang tumatawa sa mga mga sinasabi kong jokes. Kay ESPREN Alrovin(wow special mention?) na walang sawang bumabatok at nananakit sa akin at nagpapaalala na hindi ako super hero at isa lang akong "SPOILED BRAT" salamat. :P
Sa JUANDEE family who's always been kind and kind and kind to me ever since we've all started ngayong 3rd year. For laughs we've shared sa lahat ng parties, inuman at kalokohan natin sa classroom MARAMING SALAMAT.

BOANATICSZ Family

JUANDEE FAMILY

At syempre sa aking one and only TRUUUPAH kanila GINO, GRACE, HONEY, CARISSA, JESSSICA, AT RIZZA ang aking mga walang sawang nagpapatawad sa aking mga kamalian, at walang sawang ng papaalala na mag-aral ako at gumawa ng ASSIGNMENT at laging mag basa ng aking mga NOTES(which in fact I don't write lectures) for the quiz. MARAMING SALAMAT!

At sa lahat ng tao na nakilala ko this year, I was so touched that your character enter my story. We may miss some part of it. But we never know waht might happen in the future :)





happy NEW YEAR to all








HAPPY BIRTHDAY JM :)

Happy Birthday macky!

Maingay, madaldal, a living diary to her friends. A naughty sister to her Ate's and a good (o sige pagbigyan birthday eh) daughter to her parents. Ano ba talaga ang meron kay Marikris T. Vergara at kung bakit ang dami niyang kaibigan. Sa sobrang dami may umaalis at may dumadating.

Smile of HAPPINESS 

Weird things you "DON'T KNOW ABOUT MACKY"

1. Sport Writer. She's a sport writer na hindi naman mahilig sa SPORTS. KAhit kelan ata hindi ko siya nakitang naglaro ng basketball, volleyball o kaya kahit ano pang sports Either way magaling siyang WRITER :)

2. She loves to sing. Magaling siyang kumanta!!basta magaling. Basta manalig ka nalang na magaling siyang kumanta!! Never the less she's burn este born with a "golden voice".

3. DRAMA QUEEN. Madaming Article yan tungkol sa life niya. She's more on a good writer than a reader. HAHA..Madaming kwento yan tungkol kay "arhel" "algeon" and many more. She has a one of a kind instinct in terms of writing.

FRIENDS!

Iilan lang yan sa mga alam ko about her. At least I have a lot of year to be her friend. Marami pa akong malalaman, masusulat at mabubuko about her.

MAcky. As you turn older you will turn wiser. Mas matanda mas matalino. Madami pang dadating sa'yo hindi lang siya at hindi lang kame. In case na dumating sila agad much better pero kung matatagalan sila don't worry andito lang kameng mga friends mo na mag hihintay kasama mo. :)

Happy birtday MACKY!!

Christmas

Ang daming tao ang busy kasi naman magpapasko na. How come ang hilig ng tao sa paghahapit. Pati tuloy kami naghahapit ng madaming bagay!!haaaay...para  ang Christmas mas nagdadala pa ng more "stress and less relax".

Ang daming gagawin, shopping for gifts kahit naman walang pera..Rush ng gift wrapping kahit wala namang gift. It's not about the gift, its about the thought that counts :)

Divisoria Shopping

Si Santa!!When I was a kid until now naniniwala pa din ako kay SANTA CLAUS he's always been the best character I've always want to see every Christmas. LAhat naman tayo gusto si Santa naniniwala ka man o hindi. Every one of us believe in Santa and the happiness that he bring. :)

Simabang gabi simula ng Pasko sa puso ng bawat Pilipino ♫♫..Sino ba ang makakalimot ng simbang gabi? Lahat ng Pilipino gusto itong makompleto. 9 nights of sacrifices just for a wish that will come true. AMININ MO!!ginawa mo ang simabang gabi!! hahah!

Love the Christmas. It's not about the gifts, not about Santa, the simbang gabi or the shopping or what so ever. Christmas  is about celebrating it with the one you love.Your family,friends relatives all over the world. It's about the birth of our savior and the happiness that Christmas bring. 

CELEBRATE Christmas. May you have a Merry Christmas and An advance Happy New Year!!

Resolution daw!?

Ano bang gusto ko? Wala naman akong gusto as of the moment.Ito lang naman ang gusto ko  ko kung walang Ipad, Ipod touch o PSP or PS3 pwede na din ang CASH!! Yan lang naman ang gusto for this coming occasions.


Back from being serious. Ano ba mga New Year's Resolution niyo? I know Wala pang Christmas and we're all busy doing our shoppings but still I want to know your New Year's Resolution. I wonder nasusunod ba talaga sila? In case na hindi I'm honored to share to you my resolutions na hindi na hindi naman matutupad :) here are some;

1. Bawas kain. kakain na ako ng tama lang, suited for my body (I'm 5'5 in height and my weight is at least suitable for my age ;) )hindi na ako "LAMON" kain nalang siguro lalo na ngayon Holidays! DIET..DIET..DIET

2. Hindi na ako dadaldal sa klase. Quiet na ako sa room namin maybe yung time na pang daldal ko gagamitin ko nalang sa pagbabasa ng notes at review for the next class (most of the time kasi my mouth don't stop talking until I reach my boiling point)
3. Less "Twitter" and "Facebook". Di na ako mg FB at tweet. Nauubos din kasi ang oras ko sa mga iba't-ibang social networking site. Kung hindi kasi ako dumadaldal sa mga "truupah" ko eh nauubos ang oras ko surfing the net for FACEBOOK and TWITTER. I want next year to be "less internet and more on reading"
4. "Say no to alak". Next year, I'll try to be more "liver friendly" this 2010 masyado kong naabuso ang ang aking liver. aba aba hindi biro ang magkasakit sa liver!!haha :) "Less alak for the 2011"
5. Hindi na ako bibili ng mga walang kwenta. Last year wala akong naipon (walang bago dun gastadora naman talaga ako) kumbaga sa shopper ako ay "impulsive buyer". Hindi ako marunong magtipid. Kaya lagi akong humihingi ng pera kay L.A(erpat ko) kaya ayun laging may sermon :P
6. Naughty, Nice. Mas magiging mabait na ako. Teka, mabait naman ako ah diba? Pero most of the time ang pagka mahadera ko ang nagpapahamak sa akin kaya I have to be more nicer. Yes you read it right "more NICER" mas mas mabait pa :)

7. Stop looking for "Mr. Right". Hindi ko na hahanapin si Mr. Right ang tagal niya eh. Kaya next year my plan is to hide from him, siya naman ang mapagod sa kakahanap sa akin basta ito ang tip ko sa kanya. Kung wala ako sa blk 2 lot 21 phase 2 Peace Village Brgy. San Luis Antipolo City eh nasa PUP Mabini campus Sta. Mesa Manila 3rd floor puro east wing lang.

Sana siya nalang ulit!

Madami pa akong balak baguhin. Pero syempre kulang ang buong 2011 para dun and Besides as far as I'am concern hindi naman ako nagbabago. More room for improvement ang drama ko :)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE :)

happy birthday jessica!!!

A good daughter to her parents. A good sister to her siblings. A good partner for her boyfriend. And a good friend for her mates.

Those are words that best describes JESSICA OANDASAN a.k.a to "jes" to her closest friends. She use to be the smartest girl I've ever met. The knowledge of a genius at the same time a humor of a comedian. We as her friends like her the way she used to be and in case we have the chance to meet her again in some other time, I won't change anything. :)

Smart, funny, amazing and simple many of the few words that can be use to describe our dearest FRIEND. She may be smart but she never use it to criticize others.  She is funny, but it never she never annoy every single people surrounding her. Amazing she was because she can make simple things extra ordinary in their most amazing ways. And finally she's simple as the way you look at her you can see the simplicity of her personality.

Happy birthday Jessica. I don't have anything to wish for you. You the brains, the perfect love life a woman can wish for. You have the real friends surrounding you. Stay simple as you are right now. And in case you have any problems dito lang kame to cheer you up.

last night.....

Well last night is a bit of annoying for all the people who lived in Antipolo. Being stranded in traffic because of the rain that flood the marcos hi-way(from kingsville) and make me and ALL the other passengers walk from Sta. Lucia to Masinag that make my feet swell in pain when I arrive in our house.
Last night shows that people who lived in the mountain (bundok ang Antipolo right?) sometimes suffer because of the flood in the "kapatagan"
If you think walking is good to our health, well thats right, but walking with your body in total pain because of the things you've done in the morning will make you think twice. (ang hirap kaya maglakad ng masakit ang buong katawan)
Last night only show that the Government or the officials should or more on "must" think for the right thing to do for the problem.

Lahat naman tayo ang gusto lang after a long work at school and in the office as well ay makauwi agad para magpahingan but because of this kind of problem nahihirapan it make us suffer more!!because of the un necessary things happen along the way.

All I wanted is as simple as every single student wanted after school is to got home and relax after a long day at school..


the bottom line is, pagod ako, my feet suffered a "walking trauma" as well as my poor black shoes walking that long. But as far as I was concern right now is I'm fine and now ready to face again the flood. Let's thank God I'am safe. :)

Appetizers

            The Sign

                      Humingi ako ng sign, pero bakit ganun? Siya at siya parin yung binibigay. Sabi nila maniwala ka at abutin mo, pero nung inabot ko siya may bigla akong naisip. Sa pag-abot ko sa kanya hindi na pala ako nakatapak sa lupa. Parang wala na ako sa reyalidad. Nag-aabot ng hindi ko naman abot, naghahangad ng isang bagay na mapupunta lang rin pala sa iba.

                   Pero binigyan “NIyA” ako ng pagpipilian. Ang patuloy siyang abutin at pangarapin o ang tumapak sa lupa at sabihing “hindi siya para sa akin” Hindi ko talaga alam kung sinuko ko na talaga ang laban…Hindi ko nga din alam kung patuloy pa rin akong gumagawa ng paraan para kahit papaano ay mapansin niya.

                   “Talaga ngang hindi lahat ng gusto mo mapapasayo, baka nga meron pa diyang iba.”

                   Ngayon natutunan ko na magkaiba pala ang langit at lupa, ang tama at mali. Pero pilit ko pa rin pinipilit ba sana bumaba siya sa lupa mula sa langit at saluhin ako mula sa pagkakahulog sa isang malalim na bangin.

                  

                   Sana sinabi nalng niya na tumigil nalang ako, dahil kahit kalian walang katuturan ang pag-abot sa mga bituin na hindi naman para sa akin.

          

Start of something new: "First day of the second sem"

Halos ilang araw lang nang matapos ang "First Sem".

Kilala ko naman na sila, I know most of them know me too. It was a big adjustment for all us. Lahat kasi kame galing sa iba't-ibang section that make us all different in one another. Hindi ata madali ang magkaroon ng mga bagong FRIENDS kung sa loob ng dalawang taon ay iba ang mga nakasama mo. Ganun pala kahirap ang mag-adjust.

"lahat naman tayo nag-aadjust eh"

Tama lahat tayo nag-aadjust sda mga bagong tao sa paligid natin. marahil we may be childish in mind but I think we're matured enough to make decisions that can make our own personality.

Masayang kasama ang "Boanaticz"(B.O.A 2-7D)pero wala akong karapatan para husgahan at pagkumpirahin ang "BOAnaticz" at "juandee" marami man silang pinagkaiba, pero hindi pa rin maaalis ang katotohanan na NAG EENJOY ako sa company ng "juandee" tulad ng pag-eenjoy ko sa samahan namin ng "BOAnaticz"


This is a start of something new. alam ko yun. madami mang away nung nakaraan na sem but it never gonna stop us to LEARN and ENJOY at the same time. Mahaba pa ang tatakbuhin ng "juandee" meron pa kaming halos 3 sems na natitira and hope to be with them sa loob ng 3 sem na yun.

"yesterday is HISTORY, tomorrow is a MYSTERY but today is special that why it is called PRESENT"




"So many mistake in the past, so what!? As long we believe in change nothing will remain the same"

Has Love really can wait?

"There are so many things that I missed back home. I missed my family, friends and loved ones. I don't know when I'll be coming back to see them again. I wish I enjoyed my last days in the Philippines in its fullest. But there are so many circumstances that hindered me to do so. It's not that I'll bamboozle and fool around and do whatever things I want to do. But it is more of treasuring and building wonderful memories with those people whom I care the most.

I feel like I was in a cage trapped and wanting to be free. But that is the price I need to pay for not being true and loyal. And it keeps on hunting me all these time. The depression, frustrations and the fear in my heart, it's becoming unbearable. I feared for my life that I might not be what I wanted to be because of what's happening. I fear for my downfall. I don't want my dreams to be shattered and be put into waste in just a brink of time. And now, my heart and my mind are in total chaos. They're fighting each other just to prove me that they are right after all. And it disturbs my whole being and my state of mind. My sanity is fast deteriorating. I'm here in a place which I am not familiar of, still locked up in my cage, agonizing in misery and despair.

We sometimes underestimate people. We underestimate what they feel, what they can and what they cannot do to you. We want to believe that things will be alright. But in reality someone will always be in the losing end. And I know in my heart that I'm in the losing end. I sense that this dilemma and depression will last for the longest time. And if it ends, I hope this time, I'll be in the striking distance of the winning end, ecstatic and with high spirits. But unfortunately, I don't have any army or weapon to fight back and win this battle. I don't even have the courage and determination to face my enemy. The only appropriate and apt thing to do is to surrender and be a slave of my darkest fear. I became slave for so long and now I want to escape and be free again. I want to be whole again. I want to pick up the pieces of what I have lost and put it back together where it was used to be. Though I know it will never be the same again, at least it still has its purpose and meaning. I want to start anew. I want to start a new life wherein I could be proud of. I hope that this fragment of imagination will never cease. I hope it will continue to dream till I win this battle. I don't want to live in this masquerade ball anymore. I want to get out and travel in the fantasy world. But it remains to be seen or better yet it will just forever be a fantasy. Am starting to lose faith and now I'm in awry. I hope someone will just destroy my cage and make me free once more. And once I'm free, I will never go back to that cage or someone's cage anymore. Once again, this is just a product of my over imaginative imagination.

I'm not yet ready. And I don't know when will I'll be ready. I'm not yet ready to face the consequences of my inactions. I'm too weak and fragile to handle these circumstances. Instead, I will just remain in my cage and just be contented to be at least a man in my own way."

When I'am single

4 na bagay na ayaw ko pag “single” ako…

1. Bitterness- I don’t know why pero every time na nagiging single ako I always end up being bitter. Siguro dahil tapos na ang sweet moments of the relationship. And yet it’s not enough to be bitter. Bitter ako kasi mahal mo pa siya kahit na tayo na.

2. Hard to accept- After being bitter, I hate myself effusing to accept reality. Sabagay, bakit sino ba naman ang nadalian na tanggapin ang realidad ng paghihiwalay? Diba wala?! Dahil na rin sa simpleng bagay lang. Umaasa pa rin ang puso mo na pwede pang ibalik ang dati, the happiest moment and all. Umaasa pa rin na hindi pa tapos ang relationship, na meron pang susunod. Ngunit ang totoo wala na. Mali na isipin ang kadahilanang “minahal niya ako noon, yun din ang ang panghahawakan ko para mahalin niya muli ako”

3. From affirmative->negative- I hate myself kapag bumabalik ako sa dati. Yung tipong nagpakabait ka just to please him/her, then dahil wala na kayo “the good girl gone bad”. Balik sa dati ang buhay. Alak, gala, tambay isama mo pa ang mga may sungay mong barkada. Bumalik ako sa dati kasi sa tingin ko lilingon ka at babalikan ako pag nagging masama ako. (Alam ko na hindi na ako batang nawalan ng candy na kapag nawalan babalikan para bumili ng bago.)

4. Time is too long- Being single means having all of the time in your hands. I know it’s sounds so optimistic pero sabihin na natin you have all the time in the world, pero hindi maaalis ang realidad kahit ang dami mong oras kung SINGLE ka naman nonsense din. (you might have your friends pero iba pa rin pag may boyfriend/girlfriend ka)

 

            Moving on after a break-up and embracing single life may seem like a hard task for anyone. Who want to retreat to the life of being alone again when you have already had a glimpse of “FOREVER” (or at least you thought) or had an ethereal chance of happiness? However, as things suddenly took unexpected turns and you have no power to turn back the hands of time and get back to the way things use to be, you may want to start your life over and begin a new one START TO EMBRACE SINGLE LIFE AGAIN. 

"ayos na kaibigan, pangako walang iwanan"

Madaming tao sa mundo, sa sobrang dami ng makakasalubong mo bibihira lang ang makikilala mo. Sila yung mga tipo ng tao na tanggap ka ano ka man o sino ka man, para sa kanila "walang mali sa'yo, puro lahat tama".
Nang pumasok ako sa PUP(Polytechnic University of the Philippines) ang lima na 'to ang tumanggap ng buong-buo sa pagkatao ko(sabi nila di pa daw sure kung tao ako c:). Isa sila sa mga naging pandayan ng aking emosyon at sanhi ng aking pag tawa hayaan niyo naman na malaman niyo kung sino-sino sila.

Hegino Muegue- "Mr. Tall, Dark." matalino siya. Isa sa mga hinahangaan kong character niya ay ang pagiging matalino. Iba siya, matalino pero hindi "nerd" materialistic siya pero sapat lang para maging premyo sa mga fulfillment niya. Siya na ata ang may pinaka madaming alam sa amin tungkol sa mga latest gadgets and details about them. Masayang kasama, hindi niya hinahayaan ang ka itiman niya ang maging sanhi ng pag layo nga tao sa kanya bagkus ito ang ginamit niya para dumami ang tunay na kaibigan niya.
Rizza Licayan- "Ms Chickbone" pano ko ba idedescribe ang isang tulad niya. Siya siguro yhung tipo ng tao na laging patawa, yung tipong mukha palang "super tawa" na ang dulot sa amin. Mababaw lang ang pangarap niya yun ay ang yumaman(kasi kahit facebook account niya ginagawa niyang tindahan ng kung ano-ano), bakit sino ba naman ang ayaw yumaman diba.?! Mapili siya sa kaibigan, pero once you become her friend friends na kayo habang buhay

Honeylyn Daza- "Ms. Crush ng Bayan" dyosa kung ituring ng iba, pero para sa amin katulong lang siya(hahhaha joke lang) matalino din siya(well, lahat naman kame matalino eh.)pero siya she has 'Beauty and Brain' na talaga naman hahangaan ng iba. Siya yung tipo ng tao na alam mong kaibigan mo. You don't have to explain why ang mahalaga kaibigan mo siya.

Carissa Dtablan- "Ms. Banat" kung ganda ang paguusapan walangg tatalo sa akin (next lang sila ni honey)pero siya may ganda at busilak na puso. May pagkatao na "unique" pero minsan "weird" ganyan naman siguro lahat ng tao, may kanya-kanyang pagkatao at yun ang nagustuhan ko sa kanya. Hindi niya kailangan na maging iba para humanap ng totoong kaibigan.
Jessica Oandasan- "Ms. Brainiac" Smart and talented at may takot sa diyos yan ang mga salita na best describe this awesome lady. Mejo childish pero alam kong matured nang magisip. Malabo man ang mata pero malinaw ang isip at puso para kumilala ng mga totoong tao na nakapaligid sa kanya. Hindi siya judgmental kaya para sa kanya lahat ng tao ay pantay pantay tulad ng ng pagtingin ng Diyos sa atin.


Ilan lamang sila sa mga tunay kong kaibigan na tumanggap ng walang halong panghuhusga at ano pa man. Sila ang mga tao na mahalaga para sa akin. Kundi dahil sa kanila ano na kaya ako ngayong college life ko.

Thanks guys all cheers to all of us..

In case nahanap mo na ang mga tao na tumanggap sa'yo ng walang halong duda, just peace of advice wag mo na silang pakawalan ;)

A replay of a not so happy story

Have you ever feel so deeply in love with a guy, and then when you wake up one morning you just cant feel the love anymore?

            It was like viscous cycle where memories where starting to come back on my head. The first time I saw him, the time when I finally meet him. All of those memories where flashing back. It was like your favorite scene in a movie that you keep on watching and watching even thought you already know the ending. The memories were just too many to be just put in the deepest part of my head.

            Every single item in my room give me the memories that I don’t want to  remember, but I cant help it. Every single object in my room was reminding me of you. Even a single chewing gum under my bed was bringing me the happy memories of the past.

            As I try my best to forget you, I decided to go to the mall and let my mind think of other things except you. Our past was just so important to be buried and forget. As I walk to the hallway of the mall, every single stall here reminds me of the times when we are having our small cat fight. It was like the scene was happening on front of me. The running, the dagger looks and the shrugged of our shoulders when answering the question “BATI NA TAYO?!” It was like a picture perfect having its slide show and then  I just remember your favorite line, “Pictures can bring you a millions of memories” I think your right the scenario makes me just freeze in the middle of the hallway. Even though I know it was just a viscous cycle I cant help it to believe that it was true.

            As I walk across so many people that was unfamiliar to me, only one face was clear. And sadly to say it was only your face who’s just haunting me. As I always asked myself a million times before, “Ano bang meron ka?!”, that I just cant seem to move on and forget you.

            Your haunting me, so I decided to quit. I’m just tired of doing all the “moving on thing” and then at the end of the day I’ll always find myself thinking or even worst is coming back to you.  It was like I’m stranded in the past, and while I’ am stranded on the past I can see the present being dominated by my bitter past.

            “Our story is perfect, it was just like the fairytale story I read on books. You as my prince charming, me as your princess and together we made a perfect story of a happy ending scenario.”

            This was just a fairytale, only written in the books and not in life. We may separate our way but maybe there is a small hope  that our road will cross again and together we’re making a love story that I can say will last forever.

Single but not alone

It was a typical day of summer. The hot temperature outside added more boredom in my life, so I decided to went outside and try to go to malls and look for something that I want but not needed. And that is LOVE.

            Nakasakay ako sa isang fx, feeling ko pinaglalaruan ako ng tadhana biruin mo ba naman ako lng ang walang kausap na nakasakay. Ilabas ang cellphone. Makininig ng radio. Pero kahit anong gawin ko alam ko na mag isa lang ako at wala na akong magagawa nun.

            Atlast, andito na din ako sa mall, the cold aircon calm my mind. Ano ba yan! Bakit naman ganun kahit san ka man lumingon you can always see a couple. Straight man o hindi. Bakit ganun parang feeling ko naging pilya nanaman ang kupido ko at pina mukha sa akin na wala akong kasama. NA WALA AKONG PARTNER.

            Eh anong magagawa ko kundi tumingin lang at humanga sa mga couple na aking nakikita. Teka bakit nga ba ako nakatitig sa kanila? Ano ba ang pinagkaiba nila sa akin? Hindi ko alam kung ano pero sa tingin ko alam ko na ayaw ko lang aminin. Makapag kape nga muna.

            Wow! Parang feeling ko lahat ng tao na mag-isa ay nasa coffee shop ah. Wala kang makikita na couple dito, how IRONIC was that. How ironic ang init na nga eh naisipan ko pang mag kape. Just to remember the days you and I we’re still together in this small coffee shop. Ano ba bakit ganun lalo lang pinamumuka sa akin na I’m ALONE, sabayan pa ng tugtug na ALONE ni CELINE DION.

            While drinking my coffee, naisip ko na malaki ang pinagkakaiba ng SINGLE at ALONE. Eh kasi ang single, ay pinili mong maging single, you are not commited to anyone except to yourself. While being alone is just being yourself, without a friends to accompany you its like when you’re looking for comfort and you hold your own hand to comfort yourself.

            Eh sino ba niloko ko? It just like I was the one who’s doing anything and can’t even make something out of it. Bakit ganun lahat ng tao nakatingin sa akin lahat sila naka SMILE, yung tipo ng ngiti na nakakainis? Ah kaya pala, hindi ko kasi napansin na yung barista eh kanina pa nakatayo sa harap ko at naghihintay ng response ko. Sorry kuyang barista, masyado lang talaga malakas ang earphone ko kaya di kita marinig. It was so funny na yung kuyang barista is the same barista na laging kukukuha ng order natin. It was funny but so embarrassing. Kaya tumayo nalang ako at kinuha ang pina take-out ko at sabay alis sa coffee shop.

            I maybe single but not alone, maybe Mr. Right is out there somewhere in the part of this globe waiting for me, waiting for the right time to be commited. Im clossing my door for my own good, but as everybody says “If the door is close, a window is always open”

            Single but not alone. Free but not lolely. That’s how I can describe my situation right now. Happy but not commited.