The best thing I never had

Oh yes another movie was done and another story to be told. Why is it not like the movies? When everything falls in the category of “happy ending”. Where all sorrows and bitterness will turn to laughs and tears of joy. Why can it be? Why can it be the two of us?

I’ve always been in love with him. All this time I treated him as my best friend, but the truth is I’m secretly in love with him, although I keep saying it to him and he just take it as a joke. And I don’t give a shit telling it to him because I know the answer. I never tried but I know what will happen. I just know the answer.

The truth is I’m a liar. I never compare the present to my past relationship; I always compare them to him. if my present relationship turns to be like us. I know he’s not that tall, he’s not rich to buy me things I want. He doesn’t have a car to drive me around whenever I get bored. But one thing is for sure, he’s always there to listen to my problems, laugh with me whenever I wanted to laugh and he’s the only guy in this world that can totally bring the shit in me.

All I ever wanted was his attention. But as time goes by all I ever wanted was his affection, his time and his love. And I guess I can’t really take everything in the world. I’m just his gay best friend and nothing will change. It will always be like this. I guess, he’s the best thing I never had.

I always ask myself why I never have the guts to tell him what I feel and I just ending up staring at his picture looking for an answer. Now I know the answer. It is because we’ve been friends for a very long time and I always don’t like rejections, especially if it is coming from him. I never wanted our friendship to be over just because I fall in love with him and don’t feel the same way. I never wanted things to end up just like that

He knows how much I like to touch his ear before we sleep (oh yes we sleep together, but nothing happen I assure you). I like smelling him his scent. I’m just addicted to him. I like it when he acts like he is supposed to take care of me when I’m drunk but the truth is he has a low toleration of alcohol than me. I like it when I can freely touch his hands, bite his back whenever I want to, or at least punch him just because I’m bored. I want his smile that light up my Monday whenever I see him. I like him because he never gets tired of me; he never gets tired of our fights, he never gets tired of chasing me whenever I walk out(although he never did).  He never gets tire of texting me even though I always text him crappy things and even I exceed my limit in words whenever I’m not in the mood. He never gets tired of tolerating my little bratty wishes whenever he can and one thing I love about him is that he’s a spoiler. He’s everything a girl and a hopeless romantic gay could ever wish for.

I know he follows my blog, but I’m not sure if he reads my articles. Probably he’ll ask me what the hell I’m thinking posting this. The truth is I just want to let him know that I care for him and I love him. It’s not because I’m drunk as of the moment or just because I’m not receiving a text from him. I just love him the way I should love. If his answer is no then the friendship is over, and there is no options if he says yes.

Graduation Here We Come!

Few months from now, we will leave college. Few months from now we have to find a job, earn our very own first salary and enjoy the life an average adult do. Now we're professionals!

Back in my last day of high school all I ever thinking is going to college, get a god course and embrace the freedom college life will give. We all know that college is a lot harder than in High School. High school is more on the first something of everything. From the kiss to the boyfriend (although some meet their first boyfreind in college) and many more. The complicated life in college taught us to be much more of a responsible person rather than just a kid.

We all love the "gala"  back in high school., here in college its different. More on "gimik"  as they say.

This time, its different. After the long march in the commencement exercise to the real life afterward, me and the rest of  the JUANDEE family will try our best to be adult. Or at least just so they know it. This time, no more thesis deadline, but no more overnight to deal with. No more terror prof that will stun you in your seat and no more crazy prof that will make you go insane chasing them for your grades. College is one part of our life that give us the big impact. Kung ano man ang impact na yun, its up to you ;)

So for all the applicants for graduation, lets do this! think POSITIVE we're all gonna GRADUATE! :)

Lost of Words

We fight a lot. We fight because of non sense things. We fight because I drink coffee, we fight because you smoke. When me being so childish always an issue and when you acting mature change the mood. A joke for us seems to be so offensive that we always turnout fighting. Not testing anymore and letting our ego get in the way. I'm so hopeless that things will never be the same. When 'sorry' will soon not be enough to forgive, and when texts and calls are soon be screened and rejected. I'm afraid when time has come we end up nothing to say to each other. Lost of word.

Mr. Architect

Wala naman akong dapt isipin, kung tutuusin ay hindi lang naman siya ang lalake sa mundo, yet I'm still wanting for his attention and time. Honest to God ginawa ko ang lahat para lang mapansin niya ako and luckily we have the chance to write our story the other way around.

mas gusto ko ng simpleng istorya. Magandang simula at isang walang katapusang "happy moments." Pero masyado na ata akong naging masaya na nawala sa isip ko na walang kwento na walang ending, mabuti man ito o masama. Nag concentrate ata ako sa pag buo ng magandang simula na naging dahilan ng mataas mong expectations. I did not even realize that I'm losing you slowly.

Ang masaya kong kwento ay nauwi sa hindi inaasahang pag kakataon. I'm starting the to feel like my prince is ready to give up and not even try to give a damn fight. "Hangang dito nalang siguro tayo." Hindi na ata kita kilala, I think the prince in front of me is not the same person who makes my heart skips a beat. Pero hindi kita magawang masisi, aminin mo man o hindi, aminin ko man o hindi ay may kasalanan ako sa pagbabago ng ugali mo.

Paano ba ayusin ang isang bagay kung hindi mo naman alam ang sira? Mahirap mag pangap na ayos lang ako. I don't know how tyo smile in front of you when all I ever wanted to do is to cry in your shoulder and ask you the same questions over and over again. "Bakit ba lagi nalang tayo nagkikita sa hindi inaasahang pag kakataon"

Halos 4 na buwan na pala simula ng huli akong nag expect nang kahit ano mula sa'yo. Ngayon nalang ulit akong ng hangad ng kahit ano coming from you. Kailan ba titigil ang panaginip ko tunkol sa'yo? Kailan mo ba patathimikin ang isip ko? Alam kong hindi mo pa alam ang sagot, kahit ako ay hindi rin ito alam But one thing is for sure, I'm still hoping for our relationship to continue and at least has it own "happy ending."

Naging masaya naman ako sa piling mo, but that doesn't mean I can't be happy again without you.


_the Architect Man_

Poker Face

I've been writing tons of this in this blog but not even a single one you bother to read. I ask "what's wrong with you?" And then you just look at me and show me your fucking "poker face". Damn it! You did it again. Pinag mika mo nanaman akong tanga. Bakit ba inaaksaya ko ang oras ko sa'yo? You're not even worth it. Then after a few minutes to come to me, put you hand around my shoulders and let me feel you sorry, yet you still have the poker face.

When will be the time that i will show the real you? The real ********* that shows me the ugly truth, the person that make me realize that falling in love is a matter of choice and not just a pure feeling we felt. When we will be the right time for you to show the real you. I've been asking this for a long time but no answer was given. And sometimes I'm starting to feel the exhaustion of thinking and analyzing you.

Just so you know, I'm tired. I can't find a reason to stay in this.relationship, in this world you and I created. Just like what you said "falling in love is a matter of choice" this is probably my choice, and I don't even have any other option right?

So this is my goodbye now.

Thoughts on my Mind

We’ve all searching for partners. We’ve all want to have the best love story never written in this world, but what we really want to have is the uniqueness of having a perfect relationship that not everyone else have. The truth is we all just want to standout of the crowd and be noticed by others.

And there am I again. Talking to myself in the middle of nowhere while all of eyes were staring to me like hell. When will I stop talking to myself in public places? All of my life I depending on you, I always wanted to please you, to get your attention to be extraordinary in the bunch of ordinary. All I want is to glimpse at me and tell “You don’t have to do all of these, you have my attention all of this time.” But I guess I have to put extra effort on everything. That’s life live it, love it, face it!

It’s been quite a while since the last time I write an article for you. All of this time I thought I was moved on with all of the memories we’ve been through but I guess I’m a little bit not over you. It’s probably the picture in my desktop, or the photos that we’re taken a long time ago or maybe the fact that still now the communication is still tight as ever. How can my heart move on with all of these things still exist? Well, I guess I have to figure it out by myself.

It’s funny how most of the time people think they already moved on but in fact they just learn to live with the bitterness and pain that they don’t even realize that it’s painful. But when the time come they see the reason behind all of these memories will starting to come back out of nowhere. Maybe it’s true, I just mastered facing you with a poker face so that no one even you, can see the bitterness and pain on me. I congratulate myself on that.

But no matter how I try to hide, reality still appears and hit me like a machine gun in a war. I can never let you go, not now and never will. I just have to learn and master of living the pain no matter how hard and painful it is. That’s life and we have to deal with it.

Moving On and On and On

Sawa na ako sa paulit-ulit nalanmg na nangyayari sa buhay ko. Fall in love and in the next day moving on. I've been in this scenario for almost what, 9 months? And all I ever wanted is to be at least has a relationship lasting for more than at least a year, but is destiny and faith is in my side maybe a love story that will never last.

The truth is, I keep on believing myself in fake romance and naughty flings but the real thing is I'm so deeply in love with the fact that most of the times I falling in love with the wrong guy. Not totally wrong but probably a wrong timing or perhaps bad timing.

Falling in love is a normal thing in this wold, and things happen for a reason. Believe in love, believe in your fate and fall in love no matter what, move on no matter what. Never get tired of the same thing happening to you. Always look at the bright side of everything. I've been in this thing for the longest time that I remember. Believe me, darling enjoy it cause time will come that no matter how eager you want to fall in love, there is no chance of doing it. :)


LOVE.

Story Of Us

     Ang dami kong nakikita. Ang daming nasasaksihan ng mga mata ko na hindi ko aakalain na totoo. Hindi na ako naniniwala sa love, o sa kahit na ano pang same sex love affair. Nawalan na ako ng pag-asa na maiiin-love pa ako, na makikita ko pa si “Prince Charming”. Parang wala na kasing pag-asa naubos na yung pisi ng aking patience. Wala na. as in wala na.

     “What’s the point of everything if you don’t have someone that you can share them with”. Hindi naman talaga ako mayaman nakuntento nalang ako sa kung anong meron ako ngayon. We broke-up and everything in my world stop. What the hell!! Lagi nalang siya ang naiisip ko every time I’m facing my laptop. Asan ka na ba?  Hinihintay pa rin kasi kita. Ang weird nga eh parang fairytale ang love life ko yun nga lang hindi happy ending. Ano ba ang definition ng “happy ending” ano bang meron dun at lahat ng prinsesa na kilala ko dun nauwi ang love story sa happy ending. Tayo kaya san kaya mauuwi ang love story nating dalawa?

     At the end of the day, ganun pa din ikaw ako at ang matamis nating “Oo”. Hindi ko naman talaga inaalis ang posibilidad na magtagal tayo tulad ng tropa mo at ang “syota” niya o kaya ang best friend ko at ang “baby” niya. Ang akin lang pano kung dumating ang panahon na magsawa na tayo? O kaya makahanap pa tayo ng mas higit pa sa akin at mas higit pa sa’yo. There are so many possibilities yet few chances of having this love affair a worth fighting and worth the care. Ikaw ako at ang matamis nating “Oo”.

     Ang sabi mo “love is unfair”. Lahat ng love story nauwi lang sa misery at failure. Remember the first question I ask you when we first met? “But how should be the script of this kind of romance be written to disqualify it from being unfair?”. And you just laugh. Saying “sana nga ikaw na ang fair love ko”. Sa sobrang haba  ng usapan hindi ko na alam kung paano, kalian at kung saan ako magsisimula. Ang tanong ko lang “naging fair ba ang love story natin?”. Please answer me with a yes.

     Asan na ba tayo ngayon? Asan na ang perfect love story na gusto nating makamit. Asan na yung love story natin? Bakit parang nauuwi na ang lahat sa kung saan hindi naman dapat dun. Why we always end up with tears every time we fight. Why do we always end-up running toward each other. Bakit ba hindi na natin maiintindihan ang isa’t isa. Parang hindi mo na ako kilala, parang hinid na din kita kilala.

     Naglolokohan nalang ba tayo? O pinapahaba nalang natin ang kwento? Naglalaro nalang ba tayo?  Sana kahit papaano sabihin mo para makasali ako at hindi lang maging panabla. Mahal mo pa ba ako o natatkot lang tayong aminin ang totoo sa isa’tisa. Aminin nalang natin para tapos na.

     Ang pagamin ba sa katotohanan ang magpapalaya sa ating dalawa? O lalo lang nito paguguluhin ang lahat? Hindi ko alam kung saan nagsimula ang kwento natin, kaya siguro hindi ko na din alam kung paano tapusin. Kung ako ang tatanungin ayoko pa kung ikaw ba ang masusunod ano ang magiging sagot mo?

     It’s been a weird relationship. We fight then we make up then fight again and then end up making up again. Hindi ako nagsawa, hindi ako nagsasawa at kahit kalian hindi ako magsasawa sa daily routine ng love life natin. Naniniwala ako at hindi kalian man nag duda. Ikaw ang “Perfect Love Story” ko ikaw at wala ng iba. Dumating man ang panahon na hindi na natin matagalan ang isa’t-isa hindi ako papalag basta ipangako mo lang na at the end of the day this will be our “Perfect Love Story.”

Sad to say, hindi lahat ng relationship sa simbahan ang tuloy. May mga relationship na natatapos at hindi na nasusundan.I guess this is the ending. I think this is the final chapter of our love story

THE KISS

I never know how to start. The  truth is we just kissed. I know I'm not supposed to kiss him. I don't even have the right to kissed  him. He's my Ex and I think that supposed to end there.

Actually, he has a girlfriend and I have my partner too and the kiss was a big mistake. The things is, we both love it. He kiss me, then I responded I know its wrong but I can't help myself. I always trying so hard to get rid of him(my Ex) but whenever I do he always give me a reason to stay. To undergo the same scenario over and over again. What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always him. He's like the best wizard, and even though I escaped from him I'm always gonna be under his spell. There is no way out.

I've been rude to my boyfriend. I said every little detail about the kiss. What else I can do? Lie to him? I would love to but I can't. It's not like I really can't but infidelity is another issue. Its not that I'm still having an affair with my ex, it's just, we kiss and nothing else happen. Then why still my boyfriend can't forgive me?

We broke up just this morning. I'm embracing my single life again. We finished our relationship just before it start. Then, I ask myself is it my fault, or I'm just insisting it just to be fair with him.

WE BROKE UP. AND THERE IS NOTHING i CAN DO TO STOP IT. I'M ALREADY MOVED ON WITH MY EX AND FOR ME THAT'S ALL MATTERS.

The truth is, I'm just using him to forget. I may sound rude and heartless but its true. Sometimes we have to use someone just to forget the other. If your lucky to fall in love with him then it's great but if your not, then he's just other guy will get the shit out of you.

IT'S JUST A KISS, NOTHING MORE NOTHING LESS.

Is Love really enough?

By the past few weeks I've been wondering why there where so many things happening in my "love life". People who are surrounding me keep asking is love really enough? Then I ask them, are you contented with just love?

Lately, I'm starting to ask those questions to myself. Is there really such things as contentment? Do people who are in a relationship really satisfy each other? Do they give the security their partners needed? When is d time for us to say "let's stop this?" Based on my experience(at least a 9 months relationship) we really need to secure our partners, so as we. We all needed to be love to be secure that our partners only belong to us and there is no number 2. We all need to be aware of that.

After answering my friend's weird question. I believe that we need to LOVE OUR SELF, BEFORE LOVING SOMEONE ELSE. It's true we need to satisfy the hunger feeling of love inside us. But no matter how many effort your partner willing to give(or at least they gave) to you there will always be an empty space of you that people around you can't fill. If you don't love yourself  there will be a time that how many partners you have, how many people love you. You will always have that doubt that "its not enough".

Loving yourself is better to be done first before getting in to a relationship. In case, you break up with him/her you still have the 10% of yourself and not letting that person destroy the 1005 of you.

Love yourself. It's not a must, but as what other people say "prevention is better than cure"




s.u.p.e.r.j.m.r.a.m.o.s

Happy Birthday Grace!!!

I will never forget the first time we met. Naloka lang ako akala ko kasi Student Teacher ka dati then when I realize na hindi pala.


Marami na tayong na create na memory, halos buong 2 years ko sa college hindi ka umalois sa tabi ko. Magkasama nating sinuong ang hamon ng pag aaral. and because of that we learn to be strong and realized WE'RE FRIENDS FOREVER.

Masaya kang kasama. Kahit na minsan mukha na tayong tanga sa kakatawa eh keri lang! basta ang mahalaga ay masaya na tayo sa kung anong gingagwa natin. AJA!

*serious na!

I'm really thankful na naging kaibigan kita sa loob ng mahaba at malapad na 4 na taon natin sa college. Feeling ko kasi hindi ko masu-survive ang college kung hinid dahil sa'yo. (naks kala mo kaw nanay ko ah!) pero honestly speaking I'm so thankful na naging kaibigan kita at isa ka sa mgatinuturing kong BFF. Sana walng mag bago. And I'll promise you I'm always here for you!..:P

Madami na tayong napag daanan haha at alam ko madami pa tayong dadaanan. taga mo yan sa buto este bato!
I will never get a good pet este friend in this world. And if I would have a chance to pick other friends I'll choose you next to Oprah and Paris.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER GRACE BATAAN.

21 pala..

Sa pagdaan ng panahon nakasanayan ko ng mag diwang pag-21 . Madalas akong lumabas, manuod ng sine mag-isa kumain ng dinner sa mga restaurants. Mag isa ko lang ginagawa ang lahat ng yun.

Dumaan ang lahat ng 21 sa kalendaryo. Lumipas na ang mga araw. Nalanta na ang mga dahon sa puno. Pero wala pa ding nangyari. Nakakulong pa din ako sa nakaraan, sa mga ala-ala na nilikha nating dalawa. Hangang ngayon umaasa pa din ako na babalik ang dati. Na babalik ang "tayo".

Lahat ng to ay kasalanan mo. Sinanay mo akong mahalin ka at kalimutan ng magtira ng pagmamahal sa sarili ko. Nakalimutan ko ng hinid lang pala sa iyo umiikot ang mundo, na hinid lang ikaw ang nagbibigay ng kulay sa aking buahy(kailangan tugma talaga). Hindi ko na alam kung asan ako ngayon. Nakakainis ka. Ano ba ang meron ka na wala sila? Ano bang wala ka na kahit na punan pa rin ay kulang na kulang pa din para sa akin. Bakit hinid ko masagot ang sarili kong tanaong?

Sa mga larawan ng nakaraan ko nalang gustong balikan ang nakaraan. Sa mga masasayang alaala ko nalang gustong makita ang maayos nating ugnayan. Why can't we back together?. Pagaod na akong magsalita. Pagod na akong magkwento ng masasayang kwento na kabaliktaran ng realidad. Nakakasawa na ang ganito.


Sa pag lipas ng araw na to pipilitin ko ng  kalimutan ang tungkol sayo. Ang tungkol  sa atin. At tungkol sa mga ala-ala na nilikha natin. Sawa na akong pag siksikan ang sarili ko sa isang taong hindi man lang marunong lumaban at hinid malaman ang tunay na kahulugan ng "kaligayahan at pagmamahal"


Masaya ka na ngayon. Ngayon pipilitin ko naman sumaya, o mas tamang sabihin na mas magiging masaya pa ako simula sa araw na to.. Paalam. Sa huling apag kakataon nag papaalam na ako sa'yo at sa mga memorya mo. Sa maliliit na detalye na nagpapaalala sa yo. Paalam na.



Mahal kita, pero habang dumadaan ang bawat araw napapagod na ako sa paghihintay ng iyong pagbabalik. Ang pagmamahal ko sa yo ay tulad ng iyong relo. Hindi mo alam kung bakit mo pa sinusuot kung alam mo ng hinid na gumagana.

Happy Birthday RIZZA

I never thought I will appreciate our friendship. I never realize that I will treasure every single moment I'm spending with you, and lastly I never thought you will be my friend. :)


Halos apat na taon na pala tayong "magkaibigan" ng walang halong ka-plastikan bakit nga ba tayo tumagal ng ganito? Dahil ba sa samahan o dahil talaga lang tunay tayong mag kaibigan. :) And I know we both know the answer. We, the seven of us, will be friends no matter what, and we knows that,.

Happy birthday. Alam mo na kasi kung bakit tayo magkaibigan. Kumain ka man ng sandamukal na chick booster, madagdagan man ng sang katutak ang pimples at at lumaki man ang chickbone mo alam mo na I will always be your friend.Kahit pa pag kamalan mo pang si Angelica panganiban si Jake Cuenca ay keri na!. YOUR FRIEND YOUR FRIEND YOUR FRIEND.

I'm not the sweetest person you've ever meet in this world but one thing is for sure. I'm your real friend and I will never let you fall no matter what, but in case you fall don't worry I;m gonna be the first one to laugh at you. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIZZA

I wish to be your friend for the rest of your life

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Same Sex Marriage Here in the Philippines

During the past weeks I heard the news that New York Senate's legalize same-sex marriage in the their state. New York is the sixth state in the U.S to legalize same sex marriage.

On of the most famous gay couple: Neil Patrick Harris and David Durkta

here in the Philippines, napakalaking issue pa din ang "same sex marriage". Just like what happen in Baguio several days ago was still a big NO to the Church and other religious groups. Bakit ba bawal ang same sex marriage dito? Kaliwa't kanan naman may bading at tomboy kang makikita bakit ba hinid matanggap ng mga tao sa Pilipinas na there are other gender than BOYS and GIRLS.

I'm gay. I admit that. And I think as long gays don't do anything about it they have the right to marry and have the equal opportunity heterosexuals have. Its about time we open our mind to accept that gay and lesbians hve their right to be treated right.

Wala akong galit sa gobyerno o sa simbahan man. Ang akin lang anong masama kung maikasal sa kapwa lalake ang isang lalake o kapwa babae sa kapwa babae? Nababawasan ba ang ibig sabihin ng "i love you" kung sasabihin mo to sa iyong kapwa lalake? It's about time we need to face reality. Diba ang mahalaga is as long nag mamahalan ang isang counple no matter what gender is malaya silang mag pakasal. Hayaan natin sila. :)

Kung sa New York nga walang naging problema, bakit dito napakalaking bill. Hindi sakit ang pagiging "Homo" ang totoong sakit ay ang pagiging "Homophobic". Let's open our eyes for the reality na hinid nababasa sa mga libro.

Some of the tweets of Gays that are going to be marry in New York

Let's all be REALISTIC  

Sino na ba Ako?

Habang tumatagal ang panahon hinid ko na nakikilala ang sarili ko. Hindi na pamilyar sa salamin ang reflection na nakikita ko. Sino na ba ako? Ano na ako ngayon? Kilala pa ba ako ng mga taong nakapaligid sa akin.

Sabi ng iba "hindi naman talaga nagbabago ang tao, hindi nalang niya kasi nari-reach ang mga ecpectations sa kanya kaya nila sinasabi na nagbago ang isang tao." ganun na ba ako ngayon? Ano na ba talaga ako? Did I turn to a rebellious monster who doesn't follow anyone?  O ako pa rin to? Ako pa rin ang dating ako. Hindi ko na alam. Wala na akong alam.

Ganun pa din. Hanggat humihinga ako, nagpapalit ang panahon nalalagas ang dahon ng puno ay patuloy pa rin ako sa pagbabago. Maging masama man o mas maging masama. Maging katuwatuwa sa iba o kainisan ng lahat ay mag babago tulad ng pagbabago ng bawat bagay dito sa mundo. Hindi ko alam kung kailan titigil ang pagbabago ko at kung kailan ako hihinto. Isang bagay lang alam ko na patuloy sa pag ikot ang mundo at walang sino man ang makakapag paigil nito.


Sa bandang huli minahal ko din ang pag babago ko. Naging masama man sa iba hindi ko man sila napasaya. Ganun pa din ang buhay. Minsan, may mapapsaya ka at may maiinis ka. Its what they called "BALANCE"




EMBRACE THE CHANGE.

Ano daw?!

Hindi lahat ay dapat nangyari. Hindi ko dapat hinayaan ang araw na to na dumaan na parang wala lang. Isang malaking hindi!

HAAAAAY!!

Isang mahabang buntong hininga! hindi naman ako madalas maniwal sa kung anu-ano lang, mas madalas keri na sa aking ang kahit na ano kesa naman kahit na sino. ibang usapan yun! Sa bawat Lunes nalang ako sumasakay ng jeep, LRT at ano ba yun yung tawag sa sasakyan na tatlo yung gulong? Is it trycyle? Tricycle? Ah basta yun na yun hinid kasi ako nagsasabi ng mga salita na hindi ko alam ang spelling. kaya ayun sa araw-araw na gingawa ng Panginoon ay tambay lang sa bahay. Keri na kung may rampa sa gabi o may gala ng tanghali at kung mamalasin ay isa akong malaking TAMBAY!


haaaaay!

asan na ba ako? ano ba tayo ngayon? mag kaibigan o mag ka-IBIG-gan? sino ang tama at sino ang may tama! Pag lasing lang ba tayo pwede maghalikan at mag hawak ng kamay? Bakit bawal pag meron sila? Ano ba tayo talaga? Ang feeling ko naghihintay lang ako lagi sa pagbabalik mo aalis ka at iiwan din ako pag dumating yung araw na yung "tayo" ay magiging ako nalang at kahit kailan hinid na maibabalik pa ang dati. Iba na pala ngayon. Isang malaking. HAAAAAY!



hindi na aKO MAGTATANONG. hindi na din ako sasagot sa mga tanpong na ang gusto lang naman na sagot ay makakasakit sa akin.




Mahal kita, pero napagod nalang akong intindihin kung bakit hindi tayo pwedeng maging "tayo"

What's good in the rain

I always wanted the rain, storm and anything that compliment water. PAg umuulan kasi mas gusto ko pang manuod ng madradramang movie than to go to school pag umuulan. Bakit sino ba ang gustong pumasok sa school at office  na basa ang socks and feet nila dahil lang sa sumugod sila sa ulan? I love rain cause i have the time to enjoy with my sisters and cousins and niece. Ang sayang tumambay sa bahay. :)


Thanks God it's raining as of the moment and I have to stay at home and enjoy my moments with my family. Everyone wants a single piece of "perfect happiness". And As of now, I'm feeling it.




I LOVE RAIN. 

Happy birthday Alrovin

Back in first year he was one of the most "agaw attention"  na tao, he's small, short and sige na nga CUTE na! he used to be my friend (friend ko siya sa Facebook) and as time goes by the mutual feeling of friendship last. :)

All of my life I was asking for cool friends. Yung tipo ng kaibigan na alam mong malupit, mayaman and most of all hindi "plastik". Talaga ngang fair si God he gave me the worst person on earth to be my friend *joke lang!. He gave me one of the coolest person on earth that make me realize is he worth it to be my friend? The answer is YES.

He is one of the man bestfriend that i have, and breaking the record isa lang naman siya sa mga lalaking nakatulog sa room ko na walang nangyari. He is the man that is sure of his sexuality kahit na itabi mo siya sa sandamukal na bading ay alam niya kung ano siya. At dun ako bilib sa kanya.

Sometimes, or should i say most of the time nagaaway kame, we used to hit each other and fight on non-sense things, pero wala kaming pakiaalam dun kasi namin nasasabi na magkaibigan kame :) And I will never get tired of doing those fights with him dahil alam kong ganun din siya. He's really one of a kind ;)

I'm so thankful his my friend. Kahit na nasa huli siya ng listahan ko na pagsasabihan ng problema ko, he still have the best advice(sometimes naughtiest)can give to a friend. And for that I will always be thankful that he is my espren.


Sige na nga HAPPY BIRTHDAY, and you know I'm so grateful that you are my friend, espren and bestfriend (hindi nalang kita nagiging BOYFRIEND *CHOZ!) And i know your wishes will come true not now but in the future. Alam kong hinid mo ako malilimutan alam ko un anjan na ako sa buhay mo no matter what. And I feel the same way (naks!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALROVIN IBARLIN